I haven't touched this blog for months, and today I realized I have not talked about being a "Nana" - despite the name of the blog! Being a beloved Nana for me has been something I have long aspired to - long before grandchildren were even a possibility. This deep seated desire came from the reality that I never knew my grandparents. My mother's parents and my father's mother all died long before I was born, and I never knew my father's father - I saw him only a few times during my childhood but he was cold and distant. I don't remember ever speaking to him. I had a very difficult and lonely childhood and beloved grandparents would have helped tremendously! So, through the years I learned about beloved grandparents by listening to the stories of my friends - and the love those friends with beloved grandparents had was not only spoken, but physically evident in how animated they became when they told their stories. I knew I wanted to be that kind of a Nana. When I went to meet my first granddaugther I began to cry as soon as I got out of the car at my daughter's home - I lived in another state and didn't meet her until a week after her birth, but I fell in love the first time I saw an ultrasound picture of her! I adore her; and now her two sisters and brother. I remember when my daughter was pregnant with her second child, who we knew was also a girl, and how worried I was that I wouldn't love her as much or feel the same as I did with my first granddaughter. The first time I held her I laughed out loud! How silly of me - love is expansive and I fell in love all over again! The two girls were with me when their brother was born and we were all thrilled and excited as we went to meet him. I was out of state for the birth of my youngest granddaughter, and when I got the call from her oldest sister I cried again! What a gift these children have been to me and how much joy they have brought to my life would be hard to describe. I will share some writings I have done over the years in future blogs. For now, since I am not currently employed in a parish, I am focusing on being a Nana!